My
mind came back to the present just as the credits rolled up the screen.
Now it made sense. The spontaneous beach trip. The list of his favorite
movies. That sad, sad smile... My father knew he was going to die, he
knew he was sick. It was only 7 months later. Why hadn’t he told me? Was
he worried about the burden it would lay on me? I couldn’t even
remember what happened two weeks ago anymore, why these memories, why
now?
I
searched for the door to the projector room, and walked up the 7 steps
to turn off the movie. My hands seemed to have the muscle memory of what
to do to take off the reel. I opened up the reel case sitting on the
nearby table. With 7 turns the reel was rolled up and I began packing it
away. Just as I was putting the lid back on, I noticed something taped
to the inside. I carefully ripped it off, and flipped it over. My name
was written on the front. I unfolded it to reveal a letter.
My dear Heather,
I
don’t know when, or if even, you will find this letter, but I do know
that if you do, I will already be gone. I apologize for not telling you
of my sickness earlier, but I didn’t have the courage. I meant to tell
you on our final trip together, but alas you wore such a cute smile the
whole time, I just couldn’t bare to tell you. I understand if you feel
any anger towards me, but you must not feel any anger for your mother.
She was forced to leave. We discussed it, and we both felt it was the
best decision. I single letter can not describe the situation, so I urge
you to talk to her. I know you have probably not spoken to her in a
very long time, as you were known to be hard headed, but she will gladly
explain to you the details. Just listen.
Remember I love you very much, and as long as you keep your imagination with movies, I will always be by your side.
Love,
Dad
I
stood there, staring at the paper, for what felt like eternity, but in
reality only 7 minutes passed. The paper was the last bit of my dad. His
swooping handwriting, with i’s that looked more like 7’s. His last
words, and he wanted me to forgive my mother. I had very few memories at
this point, so I had no reason to only guess at my relationship with my
own mother. Perhaps it was time to forgive and forget. Perhaps it was
time for a happy ending.
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